Psalm 24:1
The earth is the Lord's, and the fullness thereof; the world,
and they that dwell therein.
O my goodness! The title of this post infers the plural form of subtle, and there are INDEED many subtle ways the old nature makes efforts to meddle into our lives, but today I only want to visit one way it has been a persistent irritant in my life in a number of ways. First of all I want to thank God for His great faithfulness, for the gift of the Holy Spirit, the Word which really does do the work, and for Jesus Himself who paid it all for me. I did go on here more than intended, HOWEVER, right at this moment, it's exactly how I feel! Most likely because HE just brought me through one of the most difficult struggles of faith I've experienced to date...at least, that's what it has felt like during this last month and more of what has seemed to be a wave after wave of stuff, difficult stuff to deal with.
So here's the skinny. This morning as I lay in bed in an effort to "seize the day" even as the Spirit reminded me to be diligent about, the inspired thought came to me to begin again with the yearly daily Bible reading my church family is participating in. So, I went online and started in the Book of Esther and listened to the whole book and it was indeed a Blessing, and a strengthening to me. I did the whole book because I know I need to be filled back up to the point of overflowing because I've used up all my supply. Next I went to the New Testament to catch up a bit there. I chose to start with 2 Corinthians 1 and listened through chapter 12 and this is where "the skinny"-the real information- begins.
All of a sudden as happy as I was to hear the victorious story in Esther, I was miserably aggravated to begin hearing this story- I didn't want to hear anything about hard times! I even felt a little angry and didn't want to continue listening and I pretty quickly committed all the feelings to the LORD. I felt terribly that I felt the way I did, but He helped me, and I received my cleansing, but it was still an effort on my part to see it through. And thanks be to God that He brought me through because the help I need was in this very familiar passage in 2 Corinthians 12:7-9 KJV (emphasis mine.)
7 And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure.
8 For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me.
9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
His Peace began to settle on me as I accepted these words...AGAIN. He does change us from glory to glory in His likeness, and we sometimes revisit those very same places we've gone to before, but each time we go when He's raising us up to a new level, we have to deal with "the thing" we have to deal with to advance with Him. Thank God He is so faithful and kind and compassionate to see us through our growing pains!
So now we've come to the subtlety I mentioned before. After His Peace settled in I was made aware of the issue which had made this so difficult for me to overcome-a sudden light of understanding filled my mind and it was so clear to me. I had become very weakened physically. I couldn't overcome it with all the tools I had relied on previously. I had used up all my resources and reserves over a long period of time and have been in need of a real R&R leave- a time for rest and recuperation (which had I done voluntarily, I wouldn't have been forced to take this one in this way. Woo-hoo!)
So this is what I saw so clearly. I was using my "tools" listening to healing scriptures, reading them aloud, decreeing them, laying hold of what I already knew to do and speaking words I know are absolutely true such as, I'm strong in the LORD and in the power of His might, and He renews my strength as the eagles, I run and am not weary, I walk and don't faint. So why didn't they work? Well, they did in my renewed spirit, but it was the motivation behind the words that could not affect the strength of my body or my soul though I've committed my whole self to the LORD for His purposes. So what am I saying here? I was trying to renew my strength because there was that part of me that still believed I had to get mine renewed, I wasn't truly, in the deepest level of my heart or mind, trusting His Strength alone to see me through and cause me to really become strong again in every area without effort on my part other than just receiving what is already true and already mine! Once again after repentance, I have been enabled by Him to enter His rest after ceasing from my own works as God did from His, for the Word Himself did indeed divide my soul and my spirit and judged the thoughts and intents of my heart in order for me to see that I was trying to strengthen myself by my own works! Ugh!!!! The carnal nature truly is subtle and can be open to the enemy's assault. But the Greater One truly takes us from strength to strength as we trust Him to do so (Psalm 84:7). I am eternally thankful for His great love, kindness, grace and PATIENCE and now, during my necessary R&R I can agree so much more readily with what Paul said in verse 9:
Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
And I know better than ever before I can rest in that power!
So, this is my story today and again, I'm so thankful for His specific leading. I trust that anyone who reads this will receive a breakthrough wherever one is needed the most and that you will experience the love of God as never before!
2 Corinthians 4:7
But we have this treasure in earthen vessels,
that the excellency of the power may be of God and not of us.